i wonder if you remember
a conversation we had once
i told you that my biggest insecurity was...
and you said "me too"

is it wrong to be happy that you have suffered the same way i have?
to fear being feared
that what scares you the most
and what troubles you
is to be feared
just like me

i want to be a source of comfort for others
and it fills me with sickness to frighten others way
you understand that

but its okay
because we can be eachothers sources of comfort

although
if im being honest
im so scared all the time because of you

im scared you'll grow tired of me

im scared i dont appreciate you enough

or that i dont express my love enough

im scared when you're away that you won't come back

im scared you're an angel and whatever task you've come to me for will be complete one day, and then you will be gone

im scared that ill say something wrong and upset you

im terrified of upsetting you

im frightened most of all that you will take this the wrong way

yes, im shaking right now at this moment

you can never see what i've written for you

i fear if i show you, you'll hate my wording

your biggest insecurity is making someone scared

just like me

would it scare you to know how much i worry about you?