Him

I think it's funny that he acts so affectionate, as if he
understands love like us real people do.
His skin feels greasy sometimes. He doesn't comb

his hair. His fingernails sometimes have black gunk
under them. His teeth are yellow. His skin is
discolored and he's fat and hideous and animal-like in
appearance and demeanor.

He asked what I think about when we make love. I
want to kill him for attaching love to the act.
I never initiate conversation anymore. Once he told
me that he feels like I'm being distant. I really would
like to kill him again.

I told him that everything is okay and that he is safe
with me. What I really meant was that I hate him and I
want to hurt and kill him.